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Last Chrismas 16:50 - Dec 24 with 8667 views2Thomas2Bowles

I'm not generally the sort to post my own wows, only really when provoked to do so when someone digs me out about none attendance, not that many have had a chance of that this year.

There has been plenty of misery around this past year, not feeling sorry for myself but for those that have lost loved ones.

Anyway
Got diagnosed with cancer a couple of weeks ago.

The hardest part is my 2 girls, both adult now at 33 and 27 who lost their mum 5/6 years past from the same. It is, without a doubt, my breaking point and tears my soul.

No one really wants to give up on life, even if it becomes unbearable. it had been hard combined with being paralysed waist down the past 10 years, life it's self is a wonderful thing and I will not be going gently into that good night but it is now a closer reality. A year at most but likely somewhat less.

Do not go gentle into that good night
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.

Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

I'm not religious but at my mums funeral, she had chosen this hymn that touched me deeply. when you are reminded how wonderful this world is made by God or not.



I'll try to be a right royal pain in the arse for a while yet and look forward to your downvotes with a smile you SoB'S

Merry Christmas



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Last Chrismas on 01:41 - Dec 26 with 2017 viewsbob566

Get better mate. Live fast live full. Do some mad stuff. If the club's reading this send a VIP package that man's way.
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Last Chrismas on 06:57 - Dec 26 with 1978 viewsBrixtonR

Mate I'm gutted for you. But i'm sure you'll fight it and Win, You are QPR
You always make me laugh as I can always spot alot of your posts are tongue in cheek, as are mine. Live every day like it's your last but hope to see on here in 2040 XxX
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Last Chrismas on 09:20 - Dec 26 with 1944 views2Thomas2Bowles

Last Chrismas on 06:57 - Dec 26 by BrixtonR

Mate I'm gutted for you. But i'm sure you'll fight it and Win, You are QPR
You always make me laugh as I can always spot alot of your posts are tongue in cheek, as are mine. Live every day like it's your last but hope to see on here in 2040 XxX


Tongue in cheek

Who me

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Last Chrismas on 09:38 - Dec 26 with 1924 viewsPaddyhoops

Sorry to hear of your terrible news.
Its an awful disease. I'm sure we've all been affected by it in some way.

Keep posting and keep fighting.
Your posts have been amusing and some times controversial but always entertaining.
Keep up the good fight!!
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Last Chrismas on 11:36 - Dec 26 with 1883 viewsrrrspricey

Had a lung scare couple of years ago and know how I felt when my mortality was threatened so can't imagine how you must be feelin 2t2b

Can only send you all the luck you need and my very best wishes that you remain pain free and stay with us as long as is humanly possible
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Last Chrismas on 13:18 - Dec 26 with 1842 viewsManinBlack

Really sorry to hear about this mate. All I can say is I wish you all the best as that is clearly worse than any depression I have gone through this year.

For the record I have always respected your posts as you call it as you see it and it is because you care what happens to our club.
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Last Chrismas on 23:57 - Feb 4 with 1736 views2Thomas2Bowles

A little update
Today has not been a good day, probably the worst I have felt, not one thing but over all, totally drained in body and mind.

Hoping for a better day tomorrow.

Cripes I sound like captain Tom

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Last Chrismas on 00:48 - Feb 5 with 1694 viewsCLAREMAN1995

Last Chrismas on 23:57 - Feb 4 by 2Thomas2Bowles

A little update
Today has not been a good day, probably the worst I have felt, not one thing but over all, totally drained in body and mind.

Hoping for a better day tomorrow.

Cripes I sound like captain Tom


Best wishes hope you get a good nights sleep and feel a lot better tomorrow .Thinking of you J.
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Last Chrismas on 09:07 - Feb 5 with 1560 viewshantssi

Last Chrismas on 23:57 - Feb 4 by 2Thomas2Bowles

A little update
Today has not been a good day, probably the worst I have felt, not one thing but over all, totally drained in body and mind.

Hoping for a better day tomorrow.

Cripes I sound like captain Tom


Hope you're feeling better today 2T2B.
Makes my 1st world problems seem trivial (they are actually, just had skiing holiday cancelled!).
Chin up old boy and keep going.
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Last Chrismas on 09:41 - Feb 5 with 1536 viewsMyke

Last Chrismas on 23:57 - Feb 4 by 2Thomas2Bowles

A little update
Today has not been a good day, probably the worst I have felt, not one thing but over all, totally drained in body and mind.

Hoping for a better day tomorrow.

Cripes I sound like captain Tom


Adopt every manager's 'one game at a time' mantra. except in your case it's one day at a time. Sending you strength to get through
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Last Chrismas on 09:53 - Feb 5 with 1525 viewsloftboy

Last Chrismas on 23:57 - Feb 4 by 2Thomas2Bowles

A little update
Today has not been a good day, probably the worst I have felt, not one thing but over all, totally drained in body and mind.

Hoping for a better day tomorrow.

Cripes I sound like captain Tom


As said, one day at a time, hope you’re feeling better.

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Last Chrismas on 10:11 - Feb 5 with 1498 viewsBrianMcCarthy

Last Chrismas on 09:41 - Feb 5 by Myke

Adopt every manager's 'one game at a time' mantra. except in your case it's one day at a time. Sending you strength to get through


Wise words, Myke.

Echo this, 2T2B. Much love.

"The opposite of love, after all, is not hate, but indifference."
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Last Chrismas on 10:43 - Feb 5 with 1470 viewsqpr_1968

Last Chrismas on 23:57 - Feb 4 by 2Thomas2Bowles

A little update
Today has not been a good day, probably the worst I have felt, not one thing but over all, totally drained in body and mind.

Hoping for a better day tomorrow.

Cripes I sound like captain Tom


not much i can add to that....except keep fighting for you and your lovely family.

your second family, us lot, are with you every step of the way.

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Last Chrismas on 10:57 - Feb 5 with 1461 viewswestberksr

Last Chrismas on 23:57 - Feb 4 by 2Thomas2Bowles

A little update
Today has not been a good day, probably the worst I have felt, not one thing but over all, totally drained in body and mind.

Hoping for a better day tomorrow.

Cripes I sound like captain Tom


I missed this over Xmas as had personal stuff that kept me off here for a few days and then time passes and threads drop down the page....

so, so sorry to hear your news and hope this bad day is something you come back from.

keep on with the posting and feel free to upset/contradict/disagree with all & sundry.
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Last Chrismas on 11:57 - Feb 5 with 1408 viewsMalintabuk

Last Chrismas on 10:57 - Feb 5 by westberksr

I missed this over Xmas as had personal stuff that kept me off here for a few days and then time passes and threads drop down the page....

so, so sorry to hear your news and hope this bad day is something you come back from.

keep on with the posting and feel free to upset/contradict/disagree with all & sundry.


Same as you I missed this over Christmas as we were wrapped up in not seeing out grandchildren.... certainly puts things in perspective
If it is any comfort Mrs T was diagnosed with late stage bowl cancer Christmas 2018 and operated on Feb 2019. We thought we lost her a couple of times but she managed to come through
All I can say is if it means anything every prayer to you and your family.... stay strong as you can and stay here....
Malc
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Last Chrismas on 13:15 - Feb 5 with 1351 viewsQPR_Jim

Last Chrismas on 10:43 - Feb 5 by qpr_1968

not much i can add to that....except keep fighting for you and your lovely family.

your second family, us lot, are with you every step of the way.


Only just seen this thread, my thoughts are with you and your family. Keep fighting.
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Last Chrismas on 14:04 - Feb 7 with 1233 views2Thomas2Bowles

Thanks all.
Had a few bad days with an infection, feeling a bit better now.

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Last Chrismas on 14:16 - Feb 7 with 1199 viewsW7Ranger

Best wishes for a speedy recovery 2T2B. You can beat this...
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Last Chrismas on 14:37 - Feb 7 with 1164 viewsMickS

Last Chrismas on 14:04 - Feb 7 by 2Thomas2Bowles

Thanks all.
Had a few bad days with an infection, feeling a bit better now.


Good man.👍
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Last Chrismas on 14:48 - Feb 7 with 1145 viewsqpr_1968

nice one thomas, glad your feeling better.

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Last Chrismas on 14:49 - Feb 7 with 1141 viewsjohncharles

Hope yesterday’s result was a bit of a booster for you. As for sounding like Captain Tom.....
He lived to be a hundred 😀

Strong and stable my arse.

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Last Chrismas on 15:00 - Feb 7 with 1119 viewsBrianMcCarthy

Good news, 2T2B.

Hard as nails, kid.

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Last Chrismas on 21:54 - Feb 7 with 1052 viewswokingrs

Last Chrismas on 14:04 - Feb 7 by 2Thomas2Bowles

Thanks all.
Had a few bad days with an infection, feeling a bit better now.


2T2B - very best wishes to you. I hope the result yesterday was a tonic. Keep fighting!
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